Daylight broke today and I was wide awake. For the first night in weeks I got a good nights rest/sleep. I shut my alarm off so it didn't wake me up at 3:30am to get a call from William. Because of the time difference from Virginia and California, he called every morning before work but it meant me being awake at 3:30. But I turned it off last night. He and I aren't really talking anymore. We had words, I was mean, he was mean. Now we aren't really speaking. No mind though, I don't mind.
Friends come and go, I've learned this. Lovers come and go... nothing ever stays in life.
The only person that since I've known him that has honestly stayed fast is Isaac and he is always there.
Besides it seems it best that he decided to not talk to me. I got rest for the first time in I don't know how long. Maybe today I'll be able to manage to get up and clean on the house. It so desperately needs it. I sure hope that I can move on from this crap... drama.... life with limitations.
I'd like to thank Rez for always knowing what to say to me and make me feel like I'm worthy.
I'd like to thanks Tukha because she has also supported me and made me feel like I was really a part of her family as her sister.
I want to thank Jared because he is a special guy that tries with all his might to understand the complexities of my life and is always there for a cheering up or cheering me on.
And Leigh Ann, you are much like me in so many ways... thanks for always understanding.

I'm actually in a better mood today than I have been in a long time. I feel freer somehow. Maybe this will be a start of a brand new way of life or new way of thinking. I need a change...ahh... I so need a change.

There is a possibility of good news and GREAT news coming soon... so I'll keep you all updated on if it all happens as it is looking like it might!!!! ^_^